Try harder, it'll be better.

HI, I'm just gonna dedicate this post to my boyfriend. And darling, I didn't do this because you asked me to. I just felt like doing it so, look here. I'm sorry that sometimes I causes disappointment and a little sadness in you in some things I do. But I'm really sorry because I really didn't mean it. Five more days and our second month's coming, I've been counting down everyday. Like what you say, only 55 days with me. But it seems like our 55 year together. Right from the top, I think..

Everything you do is really super fucking cute and I can't stand it. In the beginnings, your " harrows " and all really make me smile to myself even by just thinking of it. Now, everytime you talk to me in the little kid voice, my heart really melts. Just feel like hugging you forever whenever you does that. Especially when you talk about how you got bully in school with that cute voice, really seems like a helpless kindagarden kid. Sometimes you say jokes and find yourself lame, but to me, it's cute. Really. I can't really describe the level of cuteness you're at but you're just fucking cute. And I'm gonna hear that act cute voice of yours for the rest of my fucking life. 

You always tell me how amazing I am, how perfect I am. But I thought this is what you thought. I'm really afraid that as days goes by, you'll realize I'm not as great as you think. This is what I fear. So here I am, trying to keep up that image I have in your heart. Trying to improve myself towards being a more better girl that you'll love forever. For your sake, I'm trying. ;-)

I don't ever want anyone to replace me. I don't want my place in your heart to be taken away. I just wanna sit there in your heart till forever ends. Because to me, you're really really really important and I never ever ever wanna lose you. It's true that sometimes quarreling close up the relationship of a couple. But that doesn't mean I wanna quarrel with you everyday. Because everytime we quarrel, my heart literally crack. I know yours too. So, you see we had really been trying not to quarrel by controlling our attitude and stuffs. And these are considered as out sacrifices we made to last this relationship. Darling, I can see your effort. I can see your love. I can see that you care. So, promise me we'll last. Promise me we'll be sweeter and sweeter everyday. Promise me that, your love for me, will never fade. And I can promise you all of that. Because I know we can do it, as long as our heart stays connected, as long as our hands are held together. We'll walk this road forever. I love you, xoxo.